Yesterday got quite hurt by an sms... I begin ask myself what did i get in return when i neber ask for any....
then my depression mode turn on liao.... haiz..
i was doing my presentation that time... doing enhancements here and there..... I asked myself the same question...... what did i get in return when i neber ask for any....
Everything jus begins to spin inside my mind... wild thoughts cum into my mind.... so... i got even more damn upset... frustrated over everything.... haiz.... mi know mi shouldn't shift thoughts on to another thing... well.... wat to do wor.....
So why not we have a lesson abt respect.....
Define respect:
and its back to appreciation.... consideration......
sigh.... why i'm not getting any wor.... well dun think i won't mind..... in fact i do mind and take it to heart deeply....
Wat will i get in return, even when i neber ask for any...
well.... busy doin the flash presentation that is due on fri.... which is today la.... mi still got 10% more to go.... but feelin' Sian liao... coz the flash not really nicely done.... my flash dun look like flash !!!
Arrhhh... abit disappointed in myself for cuming up wif such a work... but no choice... thou my brain tell mi,"work work work!" but my heart tell mi "forget it.... why work so hard... kanna te-kan work, wat for do.... no one, and i mean NO ONE will be thankful for the effort u put in one..."
Do finish liao hand up... confirm get tell off, for this and that.... confirm one....
I am a person that likes to make work perfect.... but i not pro.... wan perfect work.... hire someone... or better, pay mi....
I'm Home
At last... haha... after 2 months finally cum back...
Quite lazy actually... haha... took some time to straighten up my lazy bones...
Have been stayin home today.... keep an eye on my dog... he limps while he walks... then see the scar left by the operation.... so long .... mi heart pain....
been working on my ppt slides.... sigh... mi wanna make a nicer one... but well.... so hard.... haha....
Yesterday was out to send my parents off... mi actually think its quite late, so wanna miss attending church... but well.. end up i still go.... haha.... but quite glad to go ba... mi actually quite confused in alot of things... really glad things worked out....
well.... being back is SG is great.... got lots of things to do... hahaha..... think wanna pick up my life and this time... i wanna make my life a better one.... ^^
Well... kanna block by the company cannot access alot of places in the net... like e-messenger, my sch email and even blogger... hmm then how i blog... well... mi think since they dun let mi access thru the DNS... I go ping the address out lor.... haha... at least my Internet Security skills cums in handy in time...
But well only Blogger can access... but nebermind ba... left 2 days only... mi today not stayin in office... later on(1 hr later) i'll be on my way to Mahaballipurum.. ^^ see rock day.... hahah....
then spend the whole day there liao.... evening then cum back Chennai... haha...
Tomolo is we go around visit the important ppl... take photo... so i won't be in office either... so its okie ba... tomolo hope can go off earlier... then i can go do some shopping for the last time....
Saturday is Good Bye Chennai... Hello Singapore !!!
hmm yesterday is Women's Day... mi neber stay in office long after lunch... after lunch i cum back, do some work, then see my frien msn msg(later on then found out internet sever die the whole day, jus mi open too many window, neber got to know my frien got msg mi... mi too sotong liao... Sorrie Ping.... not i neber wanna reply ya !!)... remember i forgotten to go check somethings out... immediately run down to the shopping centre below to see... then same time saw nice table mats... mi buy... for my sis... her new house ^^; haha... Housewarming gift settled !!!!
Run up to office... ooohhh the gals cum and find mi... then found out got those hand drawings session held in office... mi go do one hand... then later on mi go do again for my another hand... one hand is free the other cost money... but is okie... haha... mi like...
then also went to a room to see some stories of the important women around the world...
drag until whole day then go back office... take bag go off... neber do my work liao... coz mi quite upset of the marks... mi accept them... coz mi felt mi neber did a good job this time round.. mi learn that the important thing is not abt the grades... but is the quality of the person...
Lesson learnt...
Its not a fair world... wat i can do is dun be part of it... and becum another unfair person...
Its women's day today.... the "San Ba Fu Niu Jie" ...
Early morning when i reach the company, David and a nice lady came up to my desk and gave mi a rose.... hee hee...
A sweet gesture made my day ba... hopefully will keep that mood for the whole day today...
Really love flowers... hee....
Sicky…. Hmmm sick quite some time liao wor… 2 weeks le mah…? Hmm… today YT say mi look like kanna poison… haha… face white lips purple… later one face change to red… later on is black… lucky is one color at a time… if multi color… jia lat liao….
Today felt quite cold… muscle and joints aching… like wanna fever like that… then wanna puke wanna puke like that… mi hope by the end of the day recover soon… then I dun be burden… I wanna go Maha this Thursday one… ^^
Mi dun like myself to be weak… once sick, all other sickness follow… from flu becum flu cough then cough flu (wat am I talking abt)… then cough, throat infection, throat infection to now like chameleon, face change color… sigh… go back SG gotta go exercise liao… build up my body again…
Now abit slpy… coz mi gotta do STRUTS… thanks to lihong yesterday help mi with the work… and today lend mi her laptop (THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCH GAL !!!!! HUGZZZZ)… today got thing show… but now mentor wan mi do in websphere (coz lihong’s laptop is eclipse)… so I need to transfer my work from her laptop to my company CPU…then my HHD dunno why cannot work on lihong’s laptop… so I have to type the code one by one…
I seems haggard recently… hmm… dunno why… think everything in mi all drain up liao ba…. I seem like not expression… but inside mi everything is like slapping on to mi…. dunno how to react… when I wanna react… other thing happen liao…. Sigh…
Mi heading str for a breakdown…. Guess I really really need that… so one day see mi go charge and bang wall… dun stop mi…. (think I dun need help too….think I can do that myself…)
Crazy liao….. LOLZ…. think i utter nonsense liao... sigh....
Very grateful to the nice couple we go to know here… they brought us out on our last weekend in India… we went to Pondicherry and Mahaballipurm…
Pondicherry
Both are very nice places… ^^ beautiful scenery and all… nice food we had there… Hey ate a 2 kg Lobster… woo-hoo…
We stayed at a heritage hotel call Le Dupluex … cool bedroom…wait till I show u the pic… wahahaha…
Went to a place call Auroville… hmm countryside… lots of ang mo theres…
Also touch baby(s) goat…
Maha
Kanna fly kite by company so many times say will bring us there… end up neber… Finally got chance to go… wah…. See stone… and stone and stone….
Lots of details mi decide to give it a miss… then at least when I cum home, I got thing to talk… else everything say here, when I got home nothing to say…
Supposing to be a nice getaway weekend… hmm… supposing…
Like long time neber blog liao… so hee…. Better write one while my PL not here yet…
Wat I have been up to lately wor…. Well…. I’ve been down wif flu…*sniff* *cough cough*
So sian lor…
Still got wat ne…. ya… weekend is shopping shopping shopping… but I neber really buy anything… dunno wat to buy …Sunday met up wif frien… go dinner at a very very nice cozy place…. Mi really really like the atmosphere… call .. hmm wat Asian dunno wat one… jus know its near the place call The farmhouse(jus beside)… it resides on the same route towards Mahaballiprum, jus shorter distance… mi damn sian is I forgotten to bring my camera… else I will take down… sigh… saddy
Mi dun really know wat more to write think my brain too cloudy liao cannot think… next blog ba… new lesson … or a new book of feelings… hmm… ^^
ITS ME
