wah.... really wanna lau bak sai (meaning "cry").... accident sia.... then leave mi nothing but pain... and pain and pain...
sigh.... also dun wanna say much... hope i will improve another time... and pass my stage.... dun wanna "lang-ga" liao
lookin forward for tomolo... hee... watchin movie wif my colleagues.. nacho libre... dunno nice anot... jus dun wanna be a spoiler show... lol... will update tomolo or the day after abt the show ba... kege...
oki ... dun write liao... leg pain... wanna go put medical oil...
ahem.... hmm no voice de feeling... lol... jia lat... think is i blast too much ktv liao.... sat nite kanna call out for ktv session at jurong...
It is so so stupid... i seat at bus stop wait for bus.... so long... i gif up... flag cab... i flag down came... lookin back when i boarding the cab.... #$%$%^& the bus cum liao.... i dun wanna be bad.. so i take cab lo... sian... but nebermind... the cabby quite friendly.. making the ride quite enjoyable hee...
reach jurong go find frien... then we go lo... ^^
sang sang sang... haha.... the waitress cum in say got promo.. buy nugget or sotong ball and gif fries for free.. at 6 bucks.. we think still oki... 1 buck each person... alrite lo... my buddi say nugget... then receive glare from mi...(bro... i sea-food vege le... )he got the my eye message... quickly change to sotong ball.. at least ar... food cum.. in cone containers... looks quite big serving... thought worth the price.. everyone take one sotong ball... then we look into the container and got the shock... below... they put potato chips !! same goes for the fries... below is chips.... liew... stuffing sia... then like that rather go downstairs mac buy 3 packs of fries... or 9 pc fish dipper, 1 pack of large fries.. cheaper, more worth the price lo (coz got the gst, tax,service charge and all)... nebermind ba... lesson bought...
then i blast my voice after singing my fav song, dui de ren by dai ai ling ... then later my voice cannot make it when i sang coco lee's bei ai de niu ren... tremble liao.. then i know voice gone liao... hack...
session from 8.30 to 4am !! then after wanna eat breakfast... but found out only got mac... then no appitite for mac breakfast... so decide to go home...
today... spend time watch naruto ... and slp.... naruto.... dinner.... naruto... blog... later will be naruto again... then slp ba... lol... eh.. no no... still got Deathnote... jus bought a new book... havent read yet... hmm see how...
tomolo got riding lesson... muz slp early... wanna go back to my naruto liao..
Arrrhhhh.... why why why...... my air con is spoilt.... how am i gonna slp?? mama~~~
sad le.... suddenly spoil.... then gotta blow fan... sob sob....
wat a day....today is quite a busy day for mi.... imagine this... wat happens if 99% of the client list of a bank's database suddenly kanna wipe out.... and u gotta clean up this mess... while the fella that did this can jus say "accident" and smile, luff off this matter without doing any help.. mi actually quite upset.. coz mi dun like irresponsible ppl...
sigh... after that go lot1 meet my buddi, wanna watch 2 fast 2 furious... he have not cum.. so i went in a spec shop... wanna change my glasses... sigh... like carrot head kanna chop.... but wat to do... mi and my milk-glass-bottom glasses... its expensive... cannot run away... sigh....
later then meet my buddi lo.. coz hav not eat dinner then go mac there... end up treat my buddi to the pepper drumlets... ex le... 4 bucks for 4 small drumlets... but nebermind ba... coz say treat liao..
go watch movie... coz its mid nite show... thought no so much ppl... who knoes.... quite some ppl le... but this show is so-so la... some parts like inital D like that... no choice the brain will auto pull to that show... coz cars, speed, gals, some frien will stick to the end wif the male lead, the mountain route, competitions from some speed kings, damn cool cars(I really love the cars), father and son, male lead study same class as the female lead (the gal quite like the television actress Zhen Shi Mei), using the lau kok kok car (old useless car) change to a speed monster, then win, the speeding king's car got crush into things (walls, road, mountain)....
sucky...
Wat keeps mi in good mood..... hmm... good food + good company = good mood ^^
well... went to geylang for dinner wif my colleagues... eat claypot.. hmm.... well.. though some food i can't enjoy but nebermind... mi enjoy the company more ba... coz first time having dinner wif colleagues... (not to say lunch la.. coz dinner more seldom thing happen ba... coz after work, everyone tired then go home liao) so quite glad to go ba...
On the way back.... mi talk abt some silly stuff i encounter in the past.. think that i wanna share..
well... i'm quite a big head prawn person... always get myself into some trouble...
Story 1: I take a tibs bus... end up it turn to an entire new road which i neber go be4... so i panic... but i stay put in the bus... till i see familiar streets... later then i realise is bus change route for a turn...phew...
Story 2: I'm late in the morning... but bus neber cum... so when i see a bus cumin.. i neber take before de.. but i recall it got go to the same street where i change another bus... so i take... but well.... guessed it... the bus made a turn... towards bt timah (psst.. my destination is jurong east btw) i panic.... BUT but but but.... i sat still in the bus neber move... dun dare to move... bt timah.... to bt batok... finally jurong !! i neber took wrong bus !!... but i'm totally... totally late.... coz i by the time i reach jurong... it should be the time i'm in office working... so i reach office quite late liao...
Story 3: on my way to work... i'm gonna take 97 one de... but as the bus travel... it brought mi to a totally different route... same thing again... i panic... seat in the bus neber move... till cannot take it, then got off... then found out i took 197 !! end up... took cab to work... plus late for work...
really dunno why i so prawn rite...
oki oki last one...
Story 4: this time correct bus... 97... go home.... fell aslp.. coz i take double decker bus... i seat at the lower deck... jus behind the stairs... wif pluging to my mp3 player... when i woke up... i'm in jurong east interchange liao... oki.. wanna get off bus.. WHEN i suddenly REALISE the bus is moving in high speed.... OUT OF the interchange !!!!!!!! gosh~* i overslept, the bus reach the interchange, everyone alight... and the bus is leaving the interchange for the DEPORT !! wat am i gonna do.... i slowly walk front... so scared... then utter... "err.. uncle..." the bus uncle got the shock of his life... and his face flush black.... i dun dare to look at him anymore... he quickly pull a stop... i quickly jump off the bus and walk away... so Ma LU ~*
Silly mi... sigh... wat am i doin wor...
memories.... that i won't wanna forget... also wanna remind myself.... this is me... jus mi...
Was asked today... why i always luff... in good mood... well... i am a very low morale person... always depression... stressful...will cry when unhappie... hmm do u wanna see this side of mi? of coz nope rite... thats why i try hard to maintain my mood... dun wan my mood to get hit by mood swings or wat...
today for my lesson at bbdc there... in mrt... so many ppl... nebermind... got one lady.. she stand at the door there, holding the handle bar... hugging the pole to herself... dun picture those bears in aust... picture those old chinese dynasty times... those rich young ladies le.. putting her two hands gracefully on the pole... body lean towards it... putting the head up, chin putting on one of her hand... pls... its public transport... u wanna act in those "qiong yao" drama, go china la... dun stand there, pose there... ppl wanna hold the pole also cannot...
Tired arms... wat a day... today went for my lesson... liew.... at first i slow and steady... oki liao... but well ... accident happens... then i go haywire liao.... i pick up my pace again... then suddenly alot of ppl cum in and join in... i stress... then liao again... keep on stall fire liao... aiyo... end up cannot pass... have to go back again... but nebermind... i wan more practise afterall... i'm not giving up !!
So upset today morning... coz mi morning need to go see doc to do some test... haiz... really hate myself for being to weak and troublesome... but i do hate more is ppl not being considerate... shooting off without sparing thought for others... its not i wan ppl to mind my feelings... but is times like today.. i already feel very tired and frustrated.. i still have to push myself to go work... act as if nothing is wrong... sickening de feeling ba...
really watever ba... really is wat to do... but today mi got quite upset wif one problem from job, the irritating fella, i call him "zhang san feng" (张三丰）... why call him that... coz wat is his best kungfu? "Tai Ji" (太极）... why.... coz he good at pushing fault ! i so sickly and wanna puke liao... but i handle his problem first.. let other problem wait... did wat i could... i even gave him gentle reminder of not locking up his work.. coz he lock it up.. end up i cannot access, waste my time and effort... even got my retribution for that! He say i took my time to deal his thingy... wat the h***... wah lao.. That is wat he say one de.... haiz...
ya ya ya... my fault to be sick... my fault to force myself go see doc... my fault that the doctor cum in late... my fault for not taking the day off.. all my fault for going to work later.. his work.. alrite... since he say i take my time... then oki lo... i'll take my bl**dy time... and his work will be last... thats wat he say, thats what he gets....
jus wanna being very childish for a moment... sulky for a while...
but well... work is work... cannot complaint that much... rite ^^;
Hee hee... mi oki liao anyway... dun wanna spoil my weekend jus like that... looking forward for weekend... then i can rest... how will feel better (my body).. also can learn my bicycle !! heehee...
oh ya... some last wrap up words...
PLS la... i not dumb... not insensitive... worse is... I'm not blind la... i see some ppl treatin mi like dumb ass like that... really piss mi off...
Did a small test... quite accurate, esp when talking abt my weak stomach... for all the things ba..haha... did a small cut out... well, left out some parts..Anyone wan the link to this test... jus msg mi.. really very accurate !
性別: 女
生辰:1983年11月25日吉時
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Wanna do some lookin back... well.. frankly... how many ppl know mi well? How many ppl know that i'm a porcupine...? dun get mi wrong.. i'm not in bad mood... pissed off or wat... jus suddenly things jus struck mi..
Dun see mi everyday happie happie.. smile smile.. luff luff.. like nothing like that hor... jus like the previous posting ba... who i am hates who i've been... totally not becoz i'm a bitch la.. but.. dunno le... so funnie lo... felt very.... hmm... dunno how to explain ba...
one word... "watever!"
kege
Who I am hates who I've been - Relient K
I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind
But I will shy away from the specifics
Cause I don't want you to know where I am
Cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been
This is no place to try and live my life
Stop right there
That's exactly where I lost it
See that line
Well I never should've crossed it
Stop right there
Well I never should've said that
It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back
I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to make sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been
I talk to absolutely no one
Couldn't keep to myself enough
And the things bottled inside
Have finally begun to create so much pressure
That I'd soon blow up and
I heard the reverberating foosteps
Sinking up to the beating of my heart
And I was positive that unless I got myself together
I would watch me fall apart
And I can't let that happen again
Cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been
This is no place to try and live my life
Grumbled for days...
why my dad neber teach mi bicycle when i'm young... haha..
then grumble to frien.. some luff their heads off.. some offered to teach mi.. but i know will end up make them pek chek and will kill mi ..so better not.
Yest met up wif my old buddies... chat till 4am.. sia...long time neber meet up.. so much thingy to share.. talk till all tired.. then wanna go atm draw money.. found out... all is "Temporary out of service" whats going on !! End up frien gimmie money take cab.. when i reach home, i go to my nearby atm... HEH... how cum also out of service??
Nebermind lo... go home lo... today then go take money lo..
Sigh Sigh Sigh...
well... i've recovered from most of the nonsense... wahahah...
but wat.... now... hmm.. mi do some story telling oki...
not so long ago... there is a man, 'Goldfish'.. he wanted to buy a piece of land over the other side of the hills.. he seek his frien for advise.
He asks his frien abt how he see this piece of land.. is it worthy to buy... his frien neber saw this land before... the only info he know is how big is this land from his frien Goldfish's point of view. He felt that this land is not worth to buy as the location is not good. So he kindly tells his frien how does he think.
After hearing his frien's thoughts... Goldfish went to look for other piece of land.. but at the same time, he kept nag about the land he wanted to buy at first. "how big this land is" "how far is it from the sea" again and again and again...
Seeing that Goldfish had already made his mind to buy the land... feeling very ridicule by Gold fish, as since he already know wat he want... why ask his frien for their opinion. So his frien said," Since you already know wat u want.. why not jus go for it, buy the land"
This moment, after Goldfish heard wat his frien said, he got very angry and storm away. Leaving his frien with filled even more ridiculed by his frien's act..
Like wat he wat sia? say not good location get angry, say go buy the land get angry... like watever his frien say is wrong... is it on purpose that Goldfish wanna find trouble for his frien? Since Goldfish did not consider ppl's point of view, WHY ASK PPL FOR THEIR POINT OF VIEW?
Damn upset after reading this story.....Do you?
Why Can't I by LizPhair
Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be
Holding hands with you, and we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too
All of this is just the beginning
We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too
It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful
Here we are, we're at the beginning
We haven't fucked yet, but our are heads spinning
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
I'd love for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'
I'd love for you to pull me under
Somethin's growin'
All of this that we can't control
Baby I am dyin'
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Currently going thru... wahaha... jia lat.... jia lat.... everything so true..
Yesterday is like rollar coaster... consist of all types of emotions coming in at a shot..
muz admit.. its really very different.. and i really dunno wat should i do now.. things happened too much for mi to react..
Sigh... thought i've always tell my frien how to choose the correct ppl... well... i thought i could do the same.. guess not wor..
I do ask myself if i could believe wat i'm seeing and hearing... is that nothing but truth? or jus being treated like an idiot again..
Ppl know mi well should know... i'm a porcupine... when meeting new ppl, new surrounding i will kindda put on my protective shield.. coz' its not i dun like them.. but is i'm afraid..
Encounter..... cuming into close contact... i didn't feel afraid at all... i really dunno why i could feel so comfortable ba... maybe is i knoe i won't be hurt.. i was wrong...
Well... I am quite a slow person.. many things i rather kept to myself.. like a bottle... things jus kept filling in and in and in... till times it overflows... water leaks out... till there is space for more to be fill again... like a cycle..
Water coming from the left eye represents the feelings is fake, and the right is always real..
thought i promised myself not to use real feelings? sigh... i'm such a dimwit person.. face my fall liao... i really do hate myself for being soft hearted.. reasonable.. silly.. well can't i be stubborn and unreasonable? wat is wrong wif mi..
Feeling very useless now ba.. abit on the edge of a cliff.. i really wanna fall liao.. tired...
a battle which its' end has already been fix.. I've lose..
Punishment.... i ate chocolates... i know i can't eat... but i hav to... i really wan things to go away after the fever comes and go off... feeling very sick now...making things worse.. having a bad sore throat too... everything going down my throat is a killer... the pain, piercing into my flesh... I really wanna wake up from everything..
thought will forget the face.... but end up everytime it jus got clearer...
love is like a pit... depending how deep u fell into... how determine to crawl out like Sadako.. I can't find the opening right now... but i knoe i will find it...
dun wanna write liao else later breakdown again.. always like that.. i will be those porcupine fish liao.. all puff up...
White flag liao..
ITS ME
