Yesterday is like rollar coaster... consist of all types of emotions coming in at a shot..
muz admit.. its really very different.. and i really dunno wat should i do now.. things happened too much for mi to react..
Sigh... thought i've always tell my frien how to choose the correct ppl... well... i thought i could do the same.. guess not wor..
I do ask myself if i could believe wat i'm seeing and hearing... is that nothing but truth? or jus being treated like an idiot again..
Ppl know mi well should know... i'm a porcupine... when meeting new ppl, new surrounding i will kindda put on my protective shield.. coz' its not i dun like them.. but is i'm afraid..
Encounter..... cuming into close contact... i didn't feel afraid at all... i really dunno why i could feel so comfortable ba... maybe is i knoe i won't be hurt.. i was wrong...
Well... I am quite a slow person.. many things i rather kept to myself.. like a bottle... things jus kept filling in and in and in... till times it overflows... water leaks out... till there is space for more to be fill again... like a cycle..
Water coming from the left eye represents the feelings is fake, and the right is always real..
thought i promised myself not to use real feelings? sigh... i'm such a dimwit person.. face my fall liao... i really do hate myself for being soft hearted.. reasonable.. silly.. well can't i be stubborn and unreasonable? wat is wrong wif mi..
Feeling very useless now ba.. abit on the edge of a cliff.. i really wanna fall liao.. tired...
a battle which its' end has already been fix.. I've lose..
Punishment.... i ate chocolates... i know i can't eat... but i hav to... i really wan things to go away after the fever comes and go off... feeling very sick now...making things worse.. having a bad sore throat too... everything going down my throat is a killer... the pain, piercing into my flesh... I really wanna wake up from everything..
thought will forget the face.... but end up everytime it jus got clearer...
love is like a pit... depending how deep u fell into... how determine to crawl out like Sadako.. I can't find the opening right now... but i knoe i will find it...
dun wanna write liao else later breakdown again.. always like that.. i will be those porcupine fish liao.. all puff up...
White flag liao..
ITS ME
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