do feeling tired.... think i'm tired... tired of guessing
do feeling sad.... think i'm sad... sad to see somethingy
do feeling lost.... think i'm lost... lost in my directions
do feeling confused... think i'm confused... confused in wat went wrong
really wanna find out if there is such a machine that can read mind.... really wanna know wat is in ur mind...
Everything seems fine for this week.... hope it will always be this way...
1 hr plus more to go.... its my BIRTHDAY... kege... nice...
Abit sian when suddenly feel older liao... coz time passes real fast ba... well... wat to do wor... jus wanna make full use of time and not to waste a bit...
think its also time for mi to make some planning for my future liao... wat to do sia...
Birthday is cuming... but actually dun really feel much excited by it this year... like no mood to celebrate... or dun hav ppl to celebrate this day wif mi ba... my best friends already pre-celebrate... my "sisters" side gotta wait till next month... one of my sis having exams, dun wanna spoil her concentration... still got my poly friends.. mi meetin them next sat... so... lonely birthday for mi tomolo...
but will feeling alrite abt it... coz still got some colleagues to spend this day wif mi... mi actually quite content liao... (tomolo got some training at my HQ, full day.....) so not really complaining ba... kege...
Pissed off nite... wat the... haiz... really dunno why why why...
No matter wat nonsense u gave mi behind everyone's back, I protect ur reputation by keeping quiet liao.. why try luck, push limit?? Dun pissed mi off liao otherwise i'll jus spill everything...let everyone know how "real" person u really are .. playing wif mi using a stick and a hoop is useless... i use the thing that is in my head, above my neck to think and not between my legs, which btw I hv none !!
I'm not talking out of my anger... i'm quite calm and thought things over and over... wat went wrong... not taking any sides... my "balance" is well balance... jus felt everything is so silly.. like a game liddat..
I see how things goes ba.... cannot make it then mi jus prepare to write biography... afterall those that know mi should know whether am i spouting nonsense or speaking the truth... dun wanna keep things liao... mi should be more frank... no use siding those that doesn't gif a damn.. rite..
Was supposing to be my birthday celebration... but why aren't i happy at all...
sigh... izzit becoz' i'm 'less one screw', can bully... ever consider my feelings ma... some things can be so simple ... but making the point so obvious... hmm...
I'm not a "gei gao" (calculative) person ba... being friends can be a life long thingy... jus depends on how u wanna keep it living... so between friends cannot be so gei gao.. otherwise how can things be mantain in that way... dun be selfish...
well... watever.... hack ba.. mi should be even more blind or deaf... or heartless... maybe that way i dun get hurt so easily ...
wat had happen.. mi jus dun wanna say liao... but jus can mention after my ktv session... as walkin out came face to face wif my Ex... pengZ eh.... why did i go toilet... i should hav left earlier.. then won't see him... totally in bad mood liao.. so didn't wanna say hi or wat... jus pretend neber see... not i avoid or wat... but jus simply no mood to entertain liao... everything is drained away...
nice fri..... hmmm.... on my comfy bed... hee... mi not sick hor... kege... mi on leave today....
*nice* ^^
good mood too.... finally can slp late.... morning waken up by my sis's doggies.... busy licking my toes like nobody's business.... eek
morning went for my bike lesson... finally pass that stage... sigh who call mi slow by nature...keep failing.. and falling... alot of instructors know mi liao....keep tellin mi try harder... dun gif up.... so ma lu... but dun care so much... mi wanna pass and thats it !!
mi wanna go sun tan de... but weather like no good... think go gym first later then decide how...
nite time plan liao... meet my "long time no see " frien for dinner... then see able to drag my frien to watch movie anot...
making full use of my leave... dun wanna waste it like that by staying home....
Cheers !
ITS ME
